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July thru September 2002:
All entries are organized in reverse-chronological order so the newest entry is always at the
top. (If you're reading the journal for the first time, you might wish to start where I began
(the 3rd Quarter of 1999) and go to the bottom to begin reading.
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September 22, 2002:
It's been two weeks since my last entry. I've been back on the road ... it sure seems that I am traveling a lot. While it's almost always business, I do occasionally get to work something fun into it. You've probably noticed by now that I've become quite a Coldplay fan... [grin] Well, while I was in Baltimore last week, I was able to attend a Coldplay concert. Just the thing I needed after having had a birthday. For that night, I was just 16 again. I danced, I sang, I had an absolute blast. Chris puts on a show not to be believed. It was at the gorgeous Pier Six Concert Pavillion on the inner harbor. I never knew Baltimore was so beautiful. Anyway, I reviewed the concert for several online music sites (let me know if any of you want to see the review.) It was the most fun I've had in probably years. Richard loves 'em too. We met some new friends there and it's an experience I'll never forget. I've got to get to another one (or two) when they tour next year. We had 3rd row center tickets and were right at the edge of the stage. (Can you imagine me being able to have a night like this 100+ pounds ago?!)
You know, two days ago was exactly two years from the terrible tornado that took so much of our town and that Rich and I were practically in the center of. And you know what? Two years later (to the day and almost the minute,) it happened again. This time missing our area, but hitting parts of Ohio and much of a swath south of Indianapolis. Oh my...
Weight loss is continuing slowly now (only 1 1/2 pounds since I last wrote) because of the "time of the month". At least the scale is still going in a downward direction. I will never again complain about SLOW weight loss. I've known a stall now that lasted over a year. Nope, no complaints from me. I'm getting close now...
September 7, 2002:
Well, tomorrow is my birthday and I am so dreading it. I think this might be the year I "stop" getting older [grin]. Richard is taking me out to my favorite restaurant (over an hour away, but what the heck,) so I am looking forward to that.
Well, since I last wrote, I did make those trips to both Memphis and Chicago. The Memphis trip was wonderful (what a gorgeous city... I haven't been there since before I married Richard.) But the Chicago trip was a nightmare from beginning to end. I won't bore you with the sordid details, but suffice it to say that everything that could go wrong, did go wrong. But it didn't end there. I returned home to find out that the client for whom I'd been working for the last 4 weeks, passed away while I was gone. Oh my... everything's in a complete state of chaos now.
Some of you are doubtless waiting for letters from me, new reviews, etc, and I am so sorry that all of this has thrown me so far behind. I will, as always, do my best to get caught up. I've been working pretty much non-stop since I got home, and yes, I keep Coldplay playing in the background nearly all the time. (Their new A Rush of Blood to The Head was released while I was in Chicago... buying it was the only highlight of the trip. It's the best album I've heard in literally years.)
I've also continued the weight loss I'd restarted. I can't believe I am actually looking at the end of this tunnel now. As I said, I wanted to lose another 30 to 35 pounds. And I've now lost 20 of those (in the last 5 1/2 weeks.) Yeah!
August 18, 2002:
Things continue to be hectic at work, and I have to make trips to both Memphis and Chicago over the next two weeks. I could use a change of scenery, but ah... where to find the time for it all?
I've now lost 11 additional pounds since adding the Bontril to my morning routine. I'm feeling pretty fabulous too. Richard, as always, is an amazingly supportive husband. I am so blessed.
Want to hear another hazzard of running through your days on overdrive? I recently realized my drivers license had expired and I had totally forgotten to take care of it. I don't just mean a few days, either. Way past their "grace period" for not having to re-test. Sheesh. Can you believe it? I had to take ALL the tests again. And for us in Ohio, it means a driving test WITH a maneuverability test (you drive through cones set up in a pattern, and then back through them.) It has to be one fluid motion, no touching a cone, no checking your progress, and you have to start and end with your bumpers in prescribed positions. I felt like I was 15 again and not someone who'd been driving a quarter of a century. Ugh. I fretted over it, of course (and used Richard's car since it's smaller!) Luckily I aced it, but here's a piece of advice: Never let your license expire. Really.
When I have a really nervous week like that I listen to a LOT of music. It never fails to change and improve my perspective (well, if it's the right kind of music, that is...) This month I've mostly been listening to Coldplay. They're definitely my favorites right now. From their Parachutes album, I am very drawn to three tracks in particular: Don't Panic ("We live in a beautiful world"), Yellow ("Look at the stars; look how they shine for you"), and Trouble. They have a new album coming out August 26th as well. If you don't know about Coldplay, you might want to check them out. They're a Brit band, and they do simply exquisite stuff.
August 10, 2002:
Several new things of note, one good, one bad, and one weird. (Isn't that just typical "life"?) :)
Let's start with the weird... Richard and I spent much of our Summer devoted to our landscaping project in our front yard. We tore out all that was there and replaced it with curved garden structures that accent, rather than follow the lines of our home. (You guys know what a design-nut I am!) And when researching what we'd planned to do at the beginning of our project, we determined that we'd do it all organically rather than introduce chemicals into our ground water. It meant making special choices both in plants and in their care. It all came out great. Then last week, completely without our knowledge or consent, a local lawn service company came to our home and sprayed it all down with chemicals. You guessed it... they had the wrong address. They left a "chemical poison" sign in the yard, and a bill on our door (made out to the people that were SUPPOSED to get the treatment.) Can you believe this?
Then the bad... we had atrocious storms here this week. And yep, we ended up with some pretty bad storm damage. Siding, doors, a tree... ugh. We've had contractors over here ever since.
Finally, the good. As most of you know, I wanted to lose more weight. Although I've been comfortable where I am, I really wanted to lose another 30-ish pounds. A friend made a recommendation to me a few months ago, but I resisted. I felt like as long as I stayed true to the low carb program that had served me so well (and that I will use for the rest of my life,) it would eventually happen. Well... it wasn't happening.
Talking to my doctor, and taking into account the many people who tell me of their experiences daily, I realized there could be a number of reasons why I just couldn't lose anymore. My doctor told me my body might be "dieted out" (meaning I've gone through so many diets over the years that my body is super resistant to those last pounds.) It might also be because in order to test recipes and products for LCL, I sometimes go over my alloted carbs for the day. It could be hormonal... or several other possibilities. I'm very careful about noting all that I eat, and am very savvy about the real carbs in foods and their glycemic effects on me. And yes, I've restricted calories as well... to sensible levels, as I don't want to turn my poor battered metabolism to a lower-still mode.
My friend suggested that when she was in a similar spot, she tried taking a medication called Bontril. Well, I bet if you know anything about me, you know I really balked. A "diet drug"?? My reaction was "no way." I did a little research and found that it's a sustained release appetite suppresant. I figured I didn't really need an appetite suppresant and wasn't comfortable with that. But she told me it didn't really keep her from ever being hungry... rather, it kept her from having CRAVINGS. Okay, I figured I'd try it "just to see.." I'd take the leap... at least for a few days and see if it helped. I ordered them online through her recommendation of an actual, reliable online pharmacy (who were fast and professional, by the way.) I received them several days later, and with great hesitation, I began. You take one capsule early in the morning and that's it.
What she'd told me was exactly true for me. I still felt hungry when it was appropriate to (though not at all that "nagging" hunger you get when you skip a meal, or when your blood sugar's low.) But I felt absolutely NO cravings. No feeling I had to have chocolate, or a cracker, or anything else. And no other effects from it of any sort. I liked that, since I hate taking any medication.
Over the next few days I realized that I was perfectly happy with whatever I chose to have ... the lowest possible carb foods. And I started losing again. I've lost 7 1/2 pounds in the last two weeks since starting the Bontril. I am SO glad I made the decision to do this. I don't know if everyone would have this same experience, but it's been terrific for me. :)
Oh yes, remember, this is my journal and not our product review area. I am not making a recommendation for Bontril. It's a personal thing. Don't send me letters admonishing me for telling people to take diet drugs. [grin]
July 18, 2002:
This has surely been an interesting Summer, hasn't it? There's been more and news on low-carb and its benefits. More research. More reports. More news of the hazards of high carb. From acrylamide to heart disease and obesity. It's definitely an exciting time to be an active part of the low carb movement.
It's also been a time of tremendous growth for Low Carb Luxury. We have been breaking all sorts of records for hits at the site with visitors in the millions and we were featured in this month's Light and Tasty Magazine.
All of this at a time when my personal life has been in flux as well. I have to take a few minutes here to make personal thank you's to three friends who mean the world to me and who have propped me up and kept me whole through times of stress and exhaustion. Jim Michael, Terri DiCamillo, and Neil Beaty -- you all have been a true lifeline for me. Never underestimate the power of friends, people. True friends who will love you through both your good times and your bad; who are there for you when you're weary, when you're crabby, when you're less than attractive. And while I'm thinking of how lucky I am to have fabulous people in my life, let me just thank a couple more. Elaine Payne at The Low Carb Connoisseur, and Arne Bey at Keto Foods have gone above and beyond the call of duty to be helpful to us and to our visitors. And lastly (but definitely not least!) I am so grateful to the people who donated money to our work here over these last two weeks. I am so touched and so thankful.
One more thing... I want to share with you something from Jack London that sums up how I feel about how I expect to live my life and why:
"I would rather be ashes than dust.
I would rather my spark burn out in a brilliant blaze
Than it be stifled in dry rot.
I would rather be a superb meteor,
Every atom of me in magnificent glow,
Than a sleepy and permanent planet.
The proper function of man is to live, not just exist.
I shall use my time."